Infidel-ity (insecurity fear)



Torn flesh wrenched in pieces from a heart

Blood slipping through fingers that try to keep it from falling apart

Graphic, figurative, but this is how it feels

Ignore ‘ance’ causes bruises, betrayal leaves weals

Dont think an explanation or apology is enough to make it heal

Tumbled, marred sheets that glowed with generated heat

Of a supposed love shared

Trail of clothes and passion that reveal 

Vision impaired

Tears shed are all that fill a lonely bed

It's feeling like a fool, 

it's those unwritten rules

It's self recrimination, 

it's stupid to ask why

And its idiotic to cry

Not deception. 

 Who says?

Not a lie

A long awaited encounter that released past pain

There’s little time or space for tears that can’t be cried

Understanding requested for

An expectation that it will happen again

Images that won't ever go away, 

IT won't ever be the same

Trust crushed rarely easily returns

Wandering through a monument to a love said to be true

Invested energy, 

Cleaning instead of sleeping

Rest won’t come through the knowledge 
 
Pain, rage bottled, trapped,  steeping, 

Now seeping

Can’t drug, can’t drink, can’t self destruct, 

Just be, just think

Body strong, heart minced, 

 mind a trap, 

would love to but will never sink

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